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Tuesday, 7 January 2014
What's worth nothing yet means everything

It's funny how things never work out in the way you expected.

People ask me why I don't just say how I feel, and they tell me that I can't expect someone else to know the things that are going through my mind when I don't say anything.

I say I choose my battles. Not everything is worth fighting for, and some things lose their worth when made yours only through force.

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It makes me sad to know that for the first time in six years, you won't be around. What is really heartbreaking though, is the way we have been here together for six years but you have never really been around and nothing has changed. If anything, we seem to have settled deeper into our "roles". I'm always giving and you're always taking. More and more and more. I don't know how you feel about it, but I know I am getting increasingly resentful, and I don't really know what I'm saying anymore.

Our lack of communication, my tendency to never put you at fault for anything, your tendency to take our friendship for granted. I'm afraid I will end up hating you someday for always taking me for granted, but I could never hate you.

Maybe it was always in my head. A figment of my imagination, a dream I confused with reality.

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To be really honest, I wish I could tell you how I felt and how I feel but the words never seem to want to come out. I feel so incoherent right now. My mind feels cluttered, and I don't have the words to spell out my thoughts.

Two words that occupy my mind. This hurts.

That something could seemingly mean nothing to one, but everything to another, that you're the one but I'm just another.

love, 00:22
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