Lectopia is the best invention in uni. Thanks to lectopia I don't have to go for all lectures and I think I even concentrate better when listening to the lectures at home. At least I don't get distracted by people around me, and it might be a guilt trip thing but I actually REALLY listen? You should try it one day. Maybe I'll just listen to all my lectures on lectopia, but that'll just kill my internet. Imagine downloading that huge amount of lectures each month..lousy australian internet only has 20gb download allowance.
I bought a strawberry plant from Bunnings today. Yeah Dom FINALLY drove me there and it's the most amazing place ever. It was kinda funny though I really needed to go to the toilet right, so when I walked in I saw this huge sign that said 'Bathroom' so I was gonna go towards that sign and all....then I realised it probably meant bathroom as in bathroom fittings, sinks and bath tubs and all that jazz. LOL.
Anyway, I love Bunnings! There are so many plants in the nursery and all these huge planks of wood and machines and whatnots.
Can't believe week one is over, I'm sooooo sad, it's going to be Monday soon. I've also gotten used to not working and today I was just thinking, I don't really wanna work anymore. I don't wanna stand in that stupid van that reeks of oil and donuts and chips yuck. Neither do I want to wash hugeass trays in a tiny tiny TINY sink where the water just runs out because we are you know, in a van, and then having to get the pipe and connect it to some water supply yada yada. Plus it is so not hygenic at all, the way I, or anyone else, washes is just appalling. But hey it's like that everywhere in F&B. At the same time, I reckon if Mary calls me up I would still work. I'm not going to turn it down after all it's always good to make some extra cash here and there. Oh well I shall stop talking, it depresses me this job issue.
The best life is still having no job but somehow miraculously having an endless stream of money. Too bad there ain't no free lunch in this world.
Tug O war!!!
It's been a bizzare first week. I talk like I've finished the first week...truth is I've just self declared an early start to the weekend.
This week has been really good though, I've met so many random people everywhere it's quite scary.
1) This girl I bought my management book from.
Turns out that she knew my friend who was from my previous psych tute and in the carwash crew as well, and we are now in the same tute for psych this sem. It's funny how I got the textbook from her and we parted ways just to meet up again in the same lecture theatre minutes later.
2) Law in Society tute
I was just sitting outside the room reading and then Zaim rocked up from nowhere. I'm so glad he's in my tute. It might be too early to judge but that tutor is d-e-a-d....he is so boring. Zaim and I entertained ourselves by pretending to have only met for the first time. Yeah it was that bad. Halfway into the first part of the tute, this other girl who was in my marketing tute last semester came in as well...not that I know her all that well but you know, we're on like first name basis maybe? (haha)
3) Management tute
The people in that tute are a great bunch anyway, I foresee it being the best tute group of the semester, though psych still stands a chance and I haven't gone for my S&O tute yet. The freaky thing is that I met this guy who knows my cousins better than I do. That is not right...but it was cool, we were just talking and I found out all these connections we had. The girl in my UA tute(when I was still in that subject) was in this tute as well....and I felt so bad because I didn't immediately recognise her. I was just a bit spooked you know, like why was this girl just smiling and waving like she knows me? I don't know why I couldn't recognise her, I'm good with faces. I am! It must be due to her hair. She tied it. Made a couple of friends, some exchange students from Mexico, I stupidly asked him if he spoke Mexican. Spanish, SPANISH! I've asked this question to another girl from I can't remember where...like does she speak "the country".
Uni is becoming a smaller world, or it could just be a whole lot of coincidences. So it's been a good start and I've got to start reading S&O....there's so much to read and I really don't wanna start. Zaim is such a freak, he was telling me how he loves reading and re-reading. I hate reading....don't even talk about re-reading. Though re-reading can be enjoyable at times, strange I know but it's just what I've noticed. I don't like how the journals go on and on and sometimes I don't understand what they're saying and it gives me a headache. I also have the bad habit of flipping the pages to see how much I have left even when I'm still on the same page since I last checked.
Base Lounge this saturday night, yes? no? yes? no? Yes? Yes??? Too many things going on this Saturday though, ZY's farewell, Ism Welcome night, tutoring. But I kind of wanna go out, plus I've got Zaim's AA card so it's cheaper + no queue. Huge bonuses. Okay you're amazing if you read till here, I was jsut putting off my reading, hence a long unnecessary post.
The firsts...
The first things I've done in Melbourne, outside my own home.
First place: School
First food: Grill'd
First shop: Uni bookstore
First transport: none
First drink: Mt Franklin??
First persons: Sasha, Mei, Daryl
First...I should stop being lame.
I woke up this morning feeling so much better. Slept at 11-ish yesterday night. I haven't sleep this early in Melbourne for a long long time. Now I'm ready to take on the world!
I woke up really early though, since I slept that early. It wasn't a bad thing as I rearranged a part of my wadrobe and read some of my law in soc stuff and psych. I could be such a nerd. I am such a nerd lol.
Compared the difference in thickness between my two readers, one from sem 1 and one from this sem. I realise it's not that much different. That's sad.
I can't believe I really am back in Melbourne. I think I've got a problem, I keep worrying about all the assignments that are going to come up and whether I will be able to do them. These are all weird unfounded worries because I WILL be able to do them once I actually start learning stuff in uni but since I haven't learnt anything everything seems daunting. And when I start learning it's going to be so much to do and so little time. Holidays come quick!
Not so sweet, home.
Timbre on friday night. We ordered TWO pizzas...
Met Daniel on friday too, and we ate shaker fries. I love shaker fries so much even though it's so unhealthy it probably caused me to lose five years of my life. Shaker fries is such an ingenious creation, I really wonder why it is not a permanent item on the menu.
Caught up with Leon on saturday..met R, G and S again on saturday and hung out with my dad on Sunday.
That's my last weekend in Singapore for you. It was really, really good though. I would stay another week and skip the first like Monica, but it would be kind of pointless. Everyone's really got to seriously start studying for their A levels and I have to come back anyway to do stuff. Such as, going to uni.
First day back at school wasn't too bad. I'm just in two minds now over whether to take Self and Other, or Understanding Asia. The biggest pull factor of Sef and Other is the fact that there is NO exam. However today's tute for UA was pretty good and the reader is so slender...it's half the size of the readers I had last sem. Same goes for Law in Society which I am absolutely happy about. Two slender readers = one big (sem 1 style) reader. S&O's reader is not that slender. Okay, I understand that this is extremely ridiculous, selecting subjects based on the thickness of the reader. Not the best criteria....but it's just an IDF. I don't select my other subjects based on such trivial matters. Why did I just bother explaining myself lol.
Tomorrow's gonna be a long day....gotta head down to dancehouse at 9pm for carwash. I am feeling so lazy but this is a must, I've skipped four weeks. Can't wait for the weekend. Today was pretty good though, met Sasha and friends for lunch after uni. You wouldn't believe it but the nerd in me was going to go home and do my readings. Hah! There really isn't anything better to do and to quote somebody you should always "make hay while the sun shines".
Well, I'm now back in the season of leaf-less trees and a semester of hard hard work. Life's like that.
Everything......
My crim lecturer sounds so...fierce in her emails, compared to the one I had last semester, who was a very jolly old man. He cycles to Uni, I've seen him. And no, I'm not a stalker. Anyway, law in society sounds like a hard one this sem but I'm sure I want to do it.
:|
Shusze bought me a flower today :) It makes me feel so tropical/hawaiian/happy, and I really like blue nowadays.
I was thinking, did you really have something going on together? Then I thought, I don't really want to think about all that, I don't really want to know either. I don't know, but I'll be happy so long as we remain special. I don't really know what I mean by that either, I just want you to be happy, really.
I'll miss you too much when I'm gone.
In its rght place.
Ur so gay and you don't even like boys!
I've got random Katy Perry songs stuck in my head.
Grace is really funny. After seeing those pictures she started exclaimming about how "brown" she looks. I think I just need to get a tan, I'm GHOSTLY.
Random note, maybe my hair is really long now, all the people I've seen so far all have something to say about my hair.
This is my terrible timetable. That's what I thought when I first recevied it, but I don't think it's that bad anymore. Monday, Wednesday and Friday classes are all lectures so if I really wanted to I could just skip those three days. Though the inner nerd within wouldn't allow me to do that, hah, I'll just skip most Fridays probably. I've got a terrible Thursday but since majority of the classes are tutes and not lectures it really isn't that bad. Hopefully I'll get some good tute groups and it might even be fun. I'll be positive. Right now I just continue to hope for a new management lecture stream to be opened. I mean ONE stream is just ridiculous. It isn't so bad though, Dom did management off campus last semester so I reckon I don't really have to go for management classes either. I'll just have to spend some money and actually buy the textbook.
Another random comment about sem 2, I'm really looking forward to it..the learning parts that is, but I'm not looking forward to studying and cramming for exams.
and the wind blows
We had so much but we threw it all away. I don't know how to face this correctly, but I hope that remaining silent will be a good change. There's a child named Hurt inside me, she's screaming and banging to be let out.
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I only wanted a reason to see you, just any reason. Why have things changed so much?
Work it harder make it better do it faster make us stronger....
Today I woke up and felt dazed.
After a few minutes of moping around and lying in bed (I sound old..) I decided that NO MORE! It's all in the mind. So I shall go shopping and make the most of my time here. That means I will no longer be moody, sitting around at home waiting for miracles to happen. The shopping part is random. It's just strange I've been here so long and not bought much.
The point I'm making is, when you're not there for me, I'll be there for myself :)
Truth is, I still feel like a gooey mess inside, but but but, it's all in the mind. Yes it is.
Truth is, I still feel that way. Argh, I don't even want to shop.
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Shusze came over earlier. We dyed our hair together and it was truly a workout. I feel a bit tired now. But it was really fun :) My hair is supposed to turn blonde, that's the colour printed on the box, but it's some asian blonde brand so it just looks, brown? Actually it doesn't even look very much different from before. Shusze has a purple head (hahahah). It was so funny.
Now I just feel....sad again.
Not going down without a fight!
I have terrible posture, and a round fish face.
And I can't draw faces. I mean, I've given up...it doesn't matter anymore. So long as it has two ears one nose and one mouth. Ha.
CC
I'm bored. Found some funny pictures on facebook.
I think I turn red really fast when I drink. It wasn't always like that though, when I was younger my face didn't turn that red. Or maybe, it was because I drank only tiny amounts when I was younger. Not that I'm drinking copious amounts of alcohol now.
Anyway I don't know why those pics made me laugh. Dom's grandma in the club. It wasn't really a club, like some....I don't know what term is used to describe it. Disco. Nah, not really. Random note, I like Jinli's hair there haha. And, I don't like mine. My hair is getting really annoying, it has a mind of its own. I don't understand why it can't ever be NEAT.
Sleep All Day
I imagined you and me, we were happy.
Don't bother me with reality. It depresses me. Your next line would be, goodnight. Don't you get it yet?
DIY
What I need.
1) BIG BLACK CLOTH
2) Scissors (you can't live without scissors)
3) Fray Stoppa
4) Time and the mood
I need to do so much I need to stop feeling suffocated.
Seek
Job search..job search.
I'm trying to find a job that allows me to work with elderly people, but some Cert 3 in Aged/Community Care is required...Melbourne so troublesome.
Okay, I just gave up on that because it costs 1699 dollars to do the course and get that certificate. I know, it's so...ridiculous? I remember Dom saying something about some TAFE course and something elses. Hm, this isn't very coherent, end of topic.
Anyway I spent today recovering from yesterday. Pretty bad idea to go back to work. All the managers irk me. I hate how they treat the staff so badly, throwing their weight about, and yet behaving like a little dog in front of the guests. Cannot. Stand. It. I might still go back to work though, I think I have a strange addiction to working.
As a result of jogging + meeting ben + WORK, my entire body is aching. Legs, arms, neck, back....think I looked damn haggard after work yesterday night, been out of the scene for way too long.
I've been thinking about taking up hairdressing part time, for real this time. I'm just afraid I won't be able to handle it. Have to think about it real carefully. Decisions decisions.
The perks of doing hairdressing:
1) I love it.
2) Potential work
3) It's cool and you know it! (haha)
Downside:
1) Time consuming
2) Time consuming
3) Time consuming!!
That's how ironic life is sometimes. Somedays I may be wasting my time away accumulating fats. Other days I'll be so pressed for time I'll ask God why He only gave us 24 hours in a day.
Holy Macaroni!
Just checked my uni results online, and I couldn't believe my eyes. I did pretty well if I may say so myself. H1 average Praise God :)
Actually I still did shit for PPE but my other results pulled it up heh. I'm thinking if I did better for my first H3 PPE assignment I would've done better for PPE. Just 2 marks away from the next grade.. But it's okay, I'm not complaining. My primary 6 form teacher used to tell us that every experience is a learning experience.
Meeting the newtown loser later on, finally. She's been too busy driving and meeting Y LOL.
And I'm feeling nervous for Sem 2...imagine the whole process of reading, researching, writing essays and exams all over again. Ah I shiver at that thought.
Risks
Looks like I'm back to waiting tables. It's not so bad I guess.
This sounds so whiney whingey, but I just want you to know again. But does it really matter?
If I could speak alien, I would..
thinking of you.
I'm confused, what should I do? Should I? Should I? Should I? Argh, this makes me feel like a teenager, hold on..I am a teenager.
I'll make mistakes when I'm young, but you're not a mistake..one day you'll know.
Now here I am
Job interview tomorrow. I want that job, but at the same time...it clashes with my other job on friday. So...I have to lie, again, to IH that I'm sick or not feeling well. But anyway, I might not get the job tomorrow, though I really want to. It'll be a good change, I was thinking about how I didn't really want to go back and wait on people and all their stupid demands...getting all sweaty and dirty and smelly, having to put up with all those people and the managers...
Okay, fingers crossed...let me get it! Additional bonus, the pay is 7.50 an hour not a miserable 6.
:(
Fusion No Police
I'm going to work on FRIDAY....but it's freaking me out for some reason. I can't remember the whole rite of the work...:( :( :( when to serve, when not to serve, which dish etc. Bad idea? Plus I think Mary (Melbourne's job) fired me or something. She hasn't texted me about working for close to two weeks now? She doesn't know I'm overseas either unless Alice told her, but WHY would Alice do that?? Oh well..unsolved mysteries. I just don't wanna get fired :/ :/ :/
SIGH. I'm so stressed out. again. again. again.
Anyway, I had fun today, but blogger is seriously quite a pain, it refuses to let me upload pictures.
Bop bop baby. (hahaha :) )
It takes a thought to make a word
R (in an extremely dramatic tone): It's happening!! I can't fit into an S anymore!
A&G: (hysterical laughter)
Today was a lot of fun. I wish we could do this more often. Sometimes I wish I didn't have to leave.
There's no end to what I'm saying.
Anyway I spent the afternoon shredding my tee. It's much more time consuming than it looks...Grace says I have destructive hands :(
Of that...smell?
Don't you know how important that name is to me? It stands for all my hopes and tragedies.
I'm still feeling nervous. Uncertain. Hopeful. Weird.
But amidst all that, I know it'll be fine, we'll have the best time. That's the only reason why I can still be here.
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When he had said this, Jesus called in a loud voice, "Lazarus, come out!" The dead man came out, his hands and feet wrapped with strips of linen, and a cloth around his face. Jesus said to them, "Take off the grave clothes and let him go."
John 11:43-44
How often do we act as a real community in Christ? How often do I play my part in building God's kingdom? Sadly it seems like I hardly ever do so nowadays, or perhaps...never ever did.
Jesus called for Lazarus to come forth from the dead, and said to them, to take off his grave clothes.
We're not called to be passive, God calls us to move from where we are.. from our "death", it could be in the form of anything that hinders us from shining and reflecting his glory. Most importantly, Jesus did not perform some miraculous showy act of power by blasting all of Lazarus grave clothes away with an almighty blinding flash of light (you get my drift). Instead, he called upon the people around to remove the grave clothes binding Lazarus and preventing him from being free.
Half eaten, then spat out
I feel like staying longer and fiddling around with my new layout somemore...but I'm kinda tired.
I'm feeling nervous, wish I could tell someone how I feel without sounding like an absolutely dork. Maybe life ain't all that chill....
Can somebody tell me the codes to make the textbox a fixed height and not some neverending scroll down thing? I've tried trial and error and it isn't working. Well, try again tomorrow
Another aeroplane.
Blogger still does not let me upload pictures..
Singapore really isn't that hot. Or maybe I just haven't been out in the sun for a long enough time. Darren's been driving me out the past two days so I still have not taken the bus/train yet! Gotta go take it soon. Just for kicks.
Was thinking of going to work....but I'm not sure if I can handle the pressures of working. :( I don't know.....sometimes all these unknown and unseen pressures kill me. Thing is, sometimes they are just plain imagined by me.
Anyway, I'm having a fantastic time in singapore...haven't felt so peaceful for a long time.
It's a lie. If you believe me. It's a lie.
Will You be There
Okay, I wanted to post some pictures but strangely blogger isn't allowing me to..
GREETINGS FROM ME. I'm back in SG. (it rhymes..love it!)
Good news, it isn't that hot in this sunny island. So far it isn't, let's hope it stays that way. I don't have those insanely red toes, and neither do I feel like my pores are enlarging yet. Or maybe, I could have just exaggarated the heat in my mind, so when presented with the actual temperature, it's less than expected. So, it might be less of a lower temperature and more of the whole "mind over body" mantra.
Or, I could just be over analysing it....I've been told I'm prone to that. Though I tend to disagree, a lot.
The plane ride was good. I was thinking about many different things, like how I'm not going to see Zhiyang and Peifen that much anymore once they leave Melbourne for good. PBJ just wouldn't be the same, but then, that's how life goes. People come and people go. I'll miss them two very much. Peifen is just so..."peifen mama" of PBJ making sure everything is alright. Zhiyang is plain hilarious..plus nice. It was funny, he was driving me to the airport and halfway through the journey reached into the backseat and took out travel sickness pills and a stress ball! It was just a passing statement that I feel sick when I travel and he actually remembered and bothered to buy medicine for me. I'm missing my PBJ-ians actually. They're off to a road trip today...should be lots of fun.
