Omg. I just watched Catherine Tate as Lauren Cooper in The Periodic Table and I laughed my lungs out. I'm still laughing. AM I BOVVERED!! FACE, BOVVERED, FACE, BOVVERED. Go search it on youtube. Am I bovvered though?
It is hi-la-rious.
English SAC is going bad. It now seems certainly impossible to write fifteen hundred words. I've finished my first part and it's barely 500 words. Sarah thinks I counted wrongly though, and I hope against hope that indeed I counted wrongly. Oh well, it's not like Mrs Buckley's going to bother counting the words right.
Went over to Ben's with Jinli and Dom after school. We wanted to surprise him in the gym, so armed with brief directions from Winata, we went on this journey to the gym. I swear, Citygate has the most confusing passages and corridors ever. For all it's worth, Ben wasn't even in the gym. Instead, there was this woman who turned the gym into a sauna..I don't know what she did man, it was hot in there.
While we were there, Dom said something that was kind of funny.
Dom: Yesterday, I got my first green card in like two years!
Ok somehow it doesn't seem funny when it's typed out. But, first in TWO years! Dom's just such the sort to go for every class it's funny to think of Dom getting a green card!
So we got back our specialist tests today..I kind of wanted to ask Mrs Teo a question but at the same time I didn't really want to because I was probably wrong, but guess what. Dom was just like "Hey Mrs Teo, I think Aiwee wants to ask you a question on the test" And then, he and Jinli started laughing at me as Mrs Teo went in her usual way, "Oh god, C1 and C2 is different, how can you not have it there" or something along those lines anyway. Argh, and I tried to ask how come I still got the answer, and she just said in such a matter-of-fact way, "I guess you got it by chance."
Okayyyy. I'm so bored. I need to find some entertainment for chemistry class! I love my Biology class and what Nessa blogged about the reproduction bit was funny, where Joel goes, "Tutorials?" when Mrs Latham says there will be no practicals for reproduction. I think I will start doing some Methods homework over this June/July holidays. It's time to turn over a new leaf.
My whole family seems to have the same smile except me. Did I spoil the picture??
I feel so warm. I'm currently wearing a sweater, a scarf, track pants, socks and gloves. All I'm missing really is a beanie and a ski mask or something. It isn't even that cold today, and usually I don't wear anything apart from a sweater and trackies occasionally. I wonder what got into me today!
It's getting coldddd these days..brr.
10 more days!
Christmas, Christmas time is near!! Nobody agrees with me that Christmas is coming. (I just removed the gloves)
So far all the responses are, as follows,
Hayley: Christmas?! It's June!
Monica: CHRISTMAS IS NOT COMING
Dom: Oh my god...
Ben: (I can't remember, should be something along the lines of his eyebrow being raised)
Jinli: (was being mean, couldn't be bothered)
Ok, I can't remember anymore alright. Here're my two supporters
Mush(very reluctantly): Yahhh..Christmas is coming...
Joel: Christmas is always coming!
Okay, so anyway, mark my words, it'll be Christmas before we know it.
Another English SAC tomorrow...it never stops coming does it?! Say it after me, Year 12 is stressful. I hope I don't get a B on this SAC. Mrs Buckley seemed a little unsure about my idea for the writing. It's something like..nevermind. It's too long.
Chemical Creation!
Sorry Jinli for disappointing you again and again, you still love me very much don't you. (mush: I love me)
Anyway, in the more childish recesses of the earlier days, I told Jinli I'l give her a public apology on my blog because I didn't say I got the colour quiz from her. So here is it, your public apology!
Since Julia did the black spots, they must be her junior moles :D (hahaha, molia) Don't tell her I said that.
I'm in such a really good mood, the exams aren't even over yet, there's still a chemistry paper tomorrow. It's so stupid, I wish chemistry was at 9am, then it'll be over quicker.
It just feels nice to get home early, with the sun still up and the sky still blue...I don't know, I feel so nice and happy right now if you asked me for the world I'll probably give it to you, just that well, I can't really give you the world can I.
The Bio paper was so much better than I had expected it to be, apart from that electron transport chain question. That kinda pissed me off because last night I just had this thing in my mind telling me to please just go and understand this whole repiration shit, that it's now or never. But me, being me, I ended up trying to knit...and studying CHEMISTRY.
Oh, Joel looked really cute in his glasses today. Like Vanessa said, they kind of enlarge his eyes.
I should try to get some study done. Feel like it's the holidays already.
Joy what are those black dots? Are they ants you killed! HAHAH.
You are tending to pursue your objectives with concentrated intensity and it would seem that whatever obstacles may come into your path, you will stick to your guns and will not allow yourself to be deflected from your purpose. You are striving to achieve recognition and what is more - you deserve it.
You need an atmosphere of peace and quiet and you would like to share a bond of understanding with the 'right person' - you have the belief that with the right person, your stress and anxiety could be minimised.
You need a friend - a close friend - and you are willing to become emotionally involved with the right person, but you are very demanding and particular in your choice of partners. You are constantly looking for reassurance and it is perhaps because of this that you tend to be somewhat argumentative, but you try to hold back - careful to avoid open conflict - since this might reduce your prospects of realising your hopes of establishing a warm caring relationship.
You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. You vehemently resist any form of pressure from outside sources, insisting on your independence as an individual. You want to be a decision maker - to make up your own mind without interference. You wish to be able to draw your own conclusions and arrive at your own decisions. You detest uniformity and mediocrity as you want to be regarded as one who gives authoritative opinions. Your favourite expression could well be that 'I may not always be right but I am never wrong'. You're a perfectionist and even though you may feel that the other person's point of view may be right, you find it extremely difficult to admit that you could be wrong.
You really like doing what you do and, more than that, you like yourself. Your attitude to work and to life is that 'If its not fun - then don't do it'. You want to be liked and respected, not for who you are but for what you are - and it seems to be working.
I've been doing lots of random things the past half an hour. Anyway I found this colour thing I did to be partly true. It shocked me a little(stop rolling your eyes Jinli), because some parts just spell it all out.
Okay, study.
I'm so sick of studying and I realise that after the exams I've got to catch up on Specialist homework. However I think it's more likely that I'll end up running around the world to Telstra and then crying to Monica and then skipping off to Vic market instead of getting down to the task, just like how it happened after trials.
Oh, just this time the level six-ers will be trooping down to catch prince caspian after the last paper!
It's only six and it's so dark, it's kind of depressing and it makes you hungry, no?
Hazel-green
What I remember from those shady lines and dark patches, bouts of rage and angry tears. Now the rage remains, highly concealed. So it does not show but inside it's brewing and storming, it leaves me with regrets. Much like how colours are smudged and instead of warm fuzzy feelings, it's so distasteful it makes you feel nauseous.
I so very much want to bare myself to you, from the start we've hit it off, so I thought. Then I saw what it really was, and that I was just one in a line of others. Even as I sit right next to you I feel a million miles away, the words I want to say never come out. It's painful to sit there watching my own mistakes and how you hit it off with others. Still I would remain seated just for the sake of being near.
Is it crazy of me to say, I think I catch a hint of your interest just in the things you say. It's s very slight and so very random, I wonder if you're into mind games. It's more likely that I'm reading too much but something in me holds on to those thoughts, even though all reason cross their path, everyone needs something to hold on to, however far fetched and however naive they would seem to be. I'm one of everyone and I'm holding on to this.
When the axe falls, perhaps that's when I'll let it go, for now I hope you'll know that I'm holding on and in holding on, I'm letting go. That you'll never know, because much as I said I want to bare it all, there are just somethings everyone holds on to, and these secrets will always be a part of them.
All I'm tring to do is to stay balanced and not slip under. But will I be able to achieve just the right control in how much to let go and how hard to hold on. At least there will be no regrets because damn, something in me just knows this is right, and it hurts me to say this but in all these things, and I know somewhere, it'll take more than a miracle for my dream to turn into reality, because in reality dreams are only as real as fake.
That was just one load off my chest.
Where shall we go?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MONICA. This is the last time I'll be wishing you, don't worry :)
I'm blogging! So Jinli you don't have to check on my blog five times! And, I demand that you tell me your blog...now!
Anyway, it's a FRIDAY!! So let's have some FWAH. That stands for Fridays With Aiwee at Home! Okay Jinli I can just see your face in my mind, that fierce face with your eyebrows going weird and all that. Now I see your face changing again. Yes, I believe, perhaps I have some talent in being psychic.
This is a scene I've been picturing! It'll be Monica back in Singapore, and it goes..
Friend: Monica, why have you become so lame?
Monica: (laughs to herself) Lame? Am I lame? I don't know(laughs again), I'm lame. (laughs) (bends down to pick a leaf)
Okay, Monica's going to kill me for this. I shall tell everyone a secret, deep down, I'm deathly afraid of Monica. Really.
HAHAH!
Today I made an amazing discovery! Jinli and Monica both thought that I was aloof(dao) when they first met me. But I'm sure everyone now knows how nice I am now. And you know what? I thought Monica was demure. But that, has obviously changed.
Okay that ends the FWAH time!
Right, that was lame. I feel high, say no to snacks. I need to STUDY!! Four more days to the exams, did you know that? Well, now you do.
My nail polish is getting gross again. Oh, Ben has the most amazing toenails. Maybe amazing isn't quite apt to describe it....I don't know, his toenails are really long.
What a random post about nothing. Exams are ending in six days!
Grandlife
I could barely see Normanton park due to HAZE. Barely is an understatement. I thought that was bad. But the fog here is worse, the other night I could not see anything at all, anything. Just one big grey mist shrouding everything
Today, I shall relax just a little, even though there isn't any reason why I ought to be relaxing, and a thousand and one reasons why I ought NOT to.
Just slightly over one week more, and this crap will all be over. Then it would be a month of relaxation and then it's time to move on somemore.
Forgot my phone today, and I had to be contacted too often. I swear, when I bring my phone, nobody ever calls me or has to call me. When I don't bring it, I need to be contacted by so many people. Haha, notice is need and not want. Nobody wants to contact me!!
I think, I'll just slack off some of that chemistry or biology study tonight, and then, go to school at line 1 tomorrow and make use of that hour and twenty five minutes to catch up on what I missed tonight. Maybe, I'll skip English, because it's so darn boring. Skipped Methods today, and I bet Mclean didn't even notice I was gone.
Tip from Ben that Safeway was selling it cheap! So I went to Safeway and grabbed a whole stack of them, and the look on the cashier's face was "Right, this girl is mad".
This kind of is a random post. I feel kinda mean, but I'm just getting so annoyed why some people just don't get it. I'm not really interested in making small talk, you know, especially not that kind of small talk. Oh well, you're never going to read this anyway, and I think I'm just stressing.
You know how sometimes you want someone to talk to you, but that person never does. Instead all the wrong people keep coming up to you. Which part of me was naive enough to actually believe it was possible, and still believes it to be.
Driving me to distraction. It's hardly possible, and that's a tragedy.
