Hit the beach today...it was a really hot day, could've died. Thank God I brought my sunblock.
It's a saturday tomorrow, and I have no plans....apart from going to Ikea and getting my shelf.
Sometimes I wish the day didn't have to end...like, today. I love how the day is so long, but then when it gets dark it suddenly hits you that wow it's almost 9 pm and the day's over. It makes me feel just a little bit down.
I miss you and the thought of a whole year just makes me feel like things are so impossible. But I've been through and done that, it's just time...you can always count on it to go on so I'll just be more optimistic.
On the other hand, I've pretty much done most of the stuff I had to such as going to the bank, going to get my work roster in order, going to uni, and getting my concession/myki...now I just sit and wait while Monday rolls around and uni officially begins.
Have I also mentioned how much I love my awesome timetable! It's almost perfect, I only hate the one hour break on wednesday (I just hate breaks anyway) but I guess it's okay, cos I can go back for lunch or something.
I'm a very bad driver.
My french textbook costs 160 dollars and apparently it's compulsory......so expensive. I'm gonna ask Daryl if it really is compulsory.
Oh, I also got (aggressively) persuaded into installing windows 7 on my laptop and right now I'm so confused about how everything works. Yes I am pretty much a tech idiot, and I hated that all my browser windows did not have the erm, file bar at the top...but after fiddling around a bit I figured how to make it appear again. I actually think I'm becoming a little bit more tech savvy after this traumatising ordeal. You know, I even opened program files and drivers etc....was trying to find the driver for my SD card slot thing. ARGH it's so hard... :S
CLEMENCE do you still read my blog???? I can't fix this on my own, I need you!
The moral of the story is, don't be soft...be like steel and never waver :3(
Colour pencil pin :3) Changed my stud to a ring...this time it was relatively drama-free. The last time i tried about a year ago (ie about two months after piercing) it was terrible...I mean, the pain was terrible. Pratas! This prata place in jurong west library, it's really good.. I'm so glad I get to eat prata with you girls before i leave. Prata has got to be one of my favourite foods yum yum. With the "sporty tennis mum" I look so weird here HAHA The Kidssss, George and I. I look weird again This is so funny, I laughed really hard while reading it...miss the good ol' days. Look Rachel, it's the bow! I think I have perfected the art of bow-tying. Thanks Grace for letting me steal this from your wadrobe :) Shades from Aldo I'd been eyeing. Got it at 12.25 today, 2 for 1 sale! The two rings which made me so happy LOL.
Alright, I just posted pictures and even wrote captions...that is so rare. You know what, I'm really craving bubble tea right now. Yeah yeah it's "so five years ago" but you know what, I think I'm gonna go get some yay!
I'm craving for more monopoly deal sessions! Can't waitfor reunion dinner with Rachel and grace, plus whoever else can make it, so w can play more and also talk more. Yesterday was great. talking to them..It's easy, it's natural, it's good. I guess these are the sort of people you can always feel comfortable with.
My holiday is coming to an end in about a week. It feels so soon yet I feel like this period has gone on for forever and for too long. It's weird how things turned out, but I've jut gotta make the best of it.
Just felt like posting some pictures..brightens the page.
That's the choice of song Dom picked when he tried to make me laugh lol and I guess it did work for a bit!
Today's day one of officially pulling myself together. No moping around and thinking about..stuff. I've got a lot more on my mind ight now, like creating eric's costumes, going back to earn some proper cash (fingers crossed), soupkitchen and also how I'm starting to get excited for uni (realized I don't have readig subjects this sem unless social research methods is one).
Life is beautiful.
About my recent addiction to peach green tea with pearls, both S and G have aired their opinions on how bubble tea is so, five years ago or something.
Four and a half years ago when you first walked in, I didn't expect today. Somehow, it ended just as quickly as it began. I've been thinking and I can't think of a single proper explanation why. I've merely decided to stop taking the first initiative, and I guess things prove themselves. Well it does suck, let's be honest here who am I trying to kid, but it's also so complicated I don't know how to deal with it and thus the excessive amount of blogging.
Well at the risk of almost sounding like a perfect dork, this somewhat reminds me of Robert Frost. Dearie me, he must've gone though a similar phase which perhaps inspired his poetry to some extent (maybe this is why I chose him over Fly Away Peter in the exam). Too bad that I am the mediocre person that I am and will not be spouting rhymes or writing songs anytime.
I adore Love etc. Though I have not been using it much lately...actually my perfume craze blew over rather quickly. Let's see, I got love etc a few months ago, followed by Kate moss...and okay, that's about it. It was a tough choice between the Japanese cherry blossomone and love. JCB reminded me Ralph Lauren's romance, which is the perfume I decided I liked while at this store with jinli when I last locked myself out, but I decided it had a really sour basenote.
Anyway, I had a good day with S today, made me really happy. You know that sort of happy where you don't feel like you're compromising on anything, or putting another's happiness over your own and I could go on... Not really.
In other news, my mum is coming tomorrow and I'm really looking forward to it..you know, not having to spend afternoons alone watching video after video. I mean, I still am going to watch video after video, but it's nice to have another living being around. I could bear with all the nagging, yes, in fact I might almost miss it!
Question: is it possible to move on if there is no hurt involved? It's funny, sometimes I still find myself not wanting to say some things for fear that I would hurt you. And what's stranger is how that means I would still feel hurt when you are, in a "more than friends" way. And you know what, this has to stop. It can't go on anymore, espcially not when I have decided to let go and move on. Ugh I swear that phrase irks me.
Hi, I just came home from eunice's 21st. It was a really great party and I had a lot of fun just hanging out with my cell members. After the past few days where I actually was really sad, today was truly a refreshing change. Went shopping at Tiffany and co with suyan, got Eunice a necklace for her 21st. I think I like Tiffany and co a lot too...it's the perfect mix of everything.
I think I need a course adviser...I don't know if my current plan will work out. Oh well... Damn I'm so not ready to go back to Melbourne. Not yet.
There are worse things than being alone but it often takes decades to Realise this and most often when you do it's too late and there's nothing worse than too late - Charles Bukowski
Everything in life really does depend on the right timing. I honestly do not know what I should do. Sometimes the right thing to do isn't necessarily the best thing to do and that's when things get ridiculously complicated. I wish I could have easier decisions, or perhaps have less misgivings when making a choice, but I'm blessed with neither. I don't apologise for that either, out of everything, even if I have learnt nothing I have at least realized the imporance of loving oneself and accepting the person I am and I am slowly working towards it. It may or may not seem obvious, but like everyone else, I suffer my own share of insecurity. And it sucks.
As the day approaches I'm so filled with apprehension. Sigh
There are very many places that I would like to go, but I can't find the key to open my door.
Haven't listened to Kings of Convenience in forever. It's a rather nice change from the, errrrr....RNB/POP/HIPHOP beats (lol). Which I still love! (heart)
My home has this really "zen" presence right now because of the music that's playing LOL. I almost feel like I should shut my eyes and say 'om'. Music actually does help you to relax, a lot.
I don't have Narrow Stairs...o.m.g. I think I just used to youtube all the time.
My dreams have been very disturbing of late.
Yesterday night, I dreamt Sasha DIED. For real. Another dream I had last night was viewing a mother's death through a third person's perspective, and also seeing the life of the family she left behind.
The previous night I dreamt I had to tattoo this guy and it was really horrible, not to mention weird, because his arms started falling off and turning into...weird items such as fruits. I swear I am NOT making this up.
Those are just some examples. I've been having so many dreams in a night...all weird ones as well.
