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Monday, 28 June 2010
Oh so wonderfulllllll

It's just not right, you don't put someone else down to make yourself look better. Not under any circumstance, and definitely not when that partiular someone had always been tolerating everything you come up with.

Well, irony..irony, how ironic. Get off your moral high horse, pot calling the kettle black.

love, 22:16
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Monday, 21 June 2010
You can't play on broken strings

It feels to me like I am in a corridor with an infinite number of doors. I can't seem to find the right one, those that I open never seem right, and I always have to leave.

Incessant chatter, no awkward moments...never ceasing flow of conversation. I felt like someone wanted to talk to me - not about me, not at me, not for me....but to me, and it was just the right balance.

And then I find out, and for a moment I had no words, but I knew then that...it's no big deal, I've been there, I've done that. All I have to do is leave.

I don't want to leave things unsaid, life is too short for that. Ironically, there are so many things I have left unsaid, and each new day I carry them with me, and they would never see the light of day. I really want to know what you meant then, but I would never ask. Too many things unsaid.


love, 14:52
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Friday, 18 June 2010
Mais que faire si........

J'ai un rendez-vous avec mon ami.

Life isn't about reading into things and trying to figure out the next best move. We like to think that we have it all thought out, that we act with logic. Most of the time, we just do what seemed best at that moment. Acting on impulse. Instinct, if you like.

Which is exactly what I did today.

I still don't know what to think or even feel about the night. It was unexpected, coming from you. Putting things into context, I've met someone I can't read. In a way it makes me nervous. Apart from the people who are truly close to you, social interactions with most people are really, instint driven calculations on the next best thing to say, avoiding the awkward silences, building and setting boundaries, yada...yada. I guess this is a rather reductionist view on the complexities of interrelations. I don't know what I want to say. Perhaps I'm confused.

Disoriented.

I told myself, I would have to pretend you died

love, 00:34
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Monday, 7 June 2010
Take me to your courts

First year 2 exam tomorrow. Second one on friday, and I would be pretty much free after. There is this 2000 word research methods essay to write though and six chapters of french to learn/re-learn.

Well, so June is pretty blah but July's going to be awesome, at least it looks pretty awesome when I'm standing on the side of exams exams exams and more exams. One thing I'm definitely looking forward to is Shusze's arrival! I've also got plans to busk with Josh...hopefully we'll make some money, and it'll just be a fun experience anyway!

There are sales everywhere at the moment, too bad I'm saving money for my instrument and I just bought a ridiculous amount on Gmarket...doing all I can to stay out of Cotton on. It's just beckoning me in, stupid huge "50% OFF ALL SALE STOCK" signs are impossible to miss. All I get out of cotton on usually are basics and more basics which I convince myself I need because of the cheap price. BUT right now, every penny counts towards my goals.

Seriously, I should just head to bed because this is such a boring blog post. I'm not doing anything exciting because...it's EXAMS! I'm not thinking of anything much exciting, or rather, I'm restraining myself from thinking too much about anything apart from...exams, because it's well..EXAMS! It's almost as if I were trying to "save" cognitive space, even though we all know the brain doesnt really work that way.




Two out of context pictures. My life screams boring, there's no one to blame.

love, 21:24
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Thursday, 3 June 2010
Yesterday's a mystery, what did I do apart from studying (and stressing)

I'm not stressed, I know I prepared.

I'm stressed, what if the amount I've done is just not enough to get me the grades I want?

I'm stressed, my teeth grinding and sleep talking is apparently getting worse. Now apart from a clicking right jaw, there's this twitching sensation in my right ear as well. Why am I continually plagued with such weird syndromes......no, seriously.

But, on a scale of 1-10, 10 being the most stressed, I'll rate myself an 8 at least. It's not just studies...Out of the five concepts relating to self-esteem; scholastic performance, atheletic perfomance, behavioural conduct, physical appearance and social acceptance, I have problems with every aspect at the moment. I guess everyone does, but I'm stressed and my weird twitching jaw joint/ear is not helping. This reminds me of when my jaw hurt because of a cough I had over a few weeks. I went to the doctor because it literally hurt to smile...and the doctor taught me these jaw exercises (LOL).

Oh well, at least there is always some sort of humour in my life. Counts for something, if not nothing.

love, 21:08
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