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Monday, 28 July 2014
Nearly 7 months

Nearly a year.

Saying goodbye was hard, but that passes. It's the flashbacks that threaten to strip the future days of all colour.

In other news, I finally managed to travel out of Singapore over the weekend. It was a good break and I'm having some serious post-holiday blues right now. I wish I had taken more pictures of my little cousins, being around them over the weekend was actually really therapeutic for me. I miss their laughter and the silly things they would say. If only all children were typically developing, full of life and cheer. But then I would no longer have a job. What an irony, I'm living off the very thing I wish would vanish and not plague children.

Oh well. Back to work tomorrow...working in this particular workplace sucks the life out of me.

love, 23:17
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Monday, 14 July 2014
All the things we said.

I don't understand why things change the way they do. I tried to fix things, I'm hitting a wall, I can't trust the things you say and when it comes to that, there really is no point in continuing. At least I tried?

I'm burning this bridge. 

love, 00:09
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Thursday, 3 July 2014
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I've been having trouble thinking. Now that June is over, the anticipation from January has been replaced with an overwhelming sense of emptiness.

What now? What next?

I'm trying to root myself down to the deepest sections of the earth while knowing how futile that is. Wordlessly, mornings lead to afternoons which fade to evenings that blend into the darkness of night. No one can fight that.

How could it be that the two most important parts of my life can never exist in the same time and place? The same way east and west could never refer to the same point, and north and south could never come together to join as one. I can't go two opposing directions at once and going one way invariably brings me further and further yet still from the other. 

I fear I may never truly be at peace. Things used to carry meaning, but now that June is over, everything feels empty. People need meaning. To attach meaning to otherwise meaningless events, thoughts and actions. To feel that things in life are purposeful and not just a humdrum cycle of cause and effect born of logic. Without meaning, people lose their drive. 

love, 00:51
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