Come closer....
I got really pissed off last night actually, but amazingly IBS at cell is doing some good to me, and Ephesians 4:1-16 came to mind.
That made me consciously try to keep my temper down.
Earlier on I got kinda upset as well, but that's another story.
Why am I so badtempered these days?
I also got retrenched, but it's alright, I'm taking it well. My friend could possibly get me a job with donut van, and I'll be back to giving tuition...permanantly this time, with a possible pay rise because this mum is seriously desperate for me to teach her boy.
When one door shuts, it can only mean another is opening.
And my (now previous) job was really only to help pay for easter camp, at least, that's what I prayed for.
Oh well, I'm so tired from doing nothing, seriously.
Save you
I should sleep, but all of a sudden, I just find my life too shallow.
I know I'm "young", but I can't ride on that forever....There are all these people around me, people with so much more to them, people who have a calling in life, these people, they know what they want to do with their life, they know their direction, they have a purpose.
As for me, I just don't know.
People have big, noble dreams and aspirations and I'm suddenly feeling inspired by that, I want to do something with my life and most of all, I want to know God's calling for me.
I wish I could grow up. My prayer meeting with Ingrid a few weeks back is still lingering in my conscious mind. I can't remember the psalm now, but she has a great calling in her life and it really inspires me, that the bible is so real for her...so, so real.
Need some sleep. Cell bbq was good though, it wasn't really a cell bbq...there were people from other cells and friends of friends etc, but it was a great time. I mean, anything that gives me a reason not to read is good :)
Readings?
I feel like doing a photospam even though the only real reason why I cam online was to get my psych readings. Oh well. I wish I was still at camp, but all good things come to and enddddd it rhymes!
In case you thought I died....
Mid sem break has been fantastic so far, I spent four days up in Kangaroobie with pigs and cows and flies and mozzies and grass and sun and sand and water and hopefully, humans...LOL, and definitely ZERO time spent thinking about uni related things which was AWESOME! :)
The downside of it is that, my phone had no reception at all, both phones and for some strange reason died on me before the first day ended. Perhaps it spent too much energy trying to search for a signal, who knows....strange phenomenon, and I missed a special day...well, didn't really miss it, but well, nobody's gonna understand (pun intended or not, up to your perception) and so I'll end it here.
Being completely cut off from the outside world felt good though. It's hard to describe it, but those were four days spent just in the presence of God and truly there were no worldly burdens, it was a much needed rejuvanating break and I feel much better now, less stressed hopefully.
I should sleep. So not looking forward to tomorrow when I have to start picking up some study again. But there's cell bbq tomorrow so I might just give myself one last day of relaxation.
Oh well, I might just talk a bit about thursday night! It was great fun having an aimless night with friends....I haven't seen them for so terribly long, it feels like I'm all alone in uni, which I almost am anyway. A couple of us had a round of celebratory drinks at golden monkey...and then went to the crown arcade. I wish I was 18 and could play poker but I'm not.
I'm addicted to my stockings.........even though people say it's weird. "IT DON'T MATTER!"(catch phrase from easter camp lol)
Anyway, goodnight. I'll update some more if I feel like it tomorrow!
I TRIED TO WATCH THE SUNSET....
After ten minutes, all these clouds came and there was no sun anymore.
Sigh, I think thursday might be a better day since it'll be sunny and 26 degrees, not like today's freezing weather. Melbourne is starting to have her whole...four seasons a day kind of weather again.
Well, since my sunset watching failed, I decided to take pictures of myself. It's a sign of stress haha, nah, I was just bored. WHICH SHOULD NOT BE THE CASE. But I reckon since easter break starts next week, everyone's just starting to wind down, cut themselves some slack......etc, see how so many people have been absent in tutes and lectures.
Oh well, I believe it's really because everyone's busy rushing their assignments, I can't be bothered to look through mine anymore. SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME TO STOP WITH THIS ATTITUDE.
See, I pretended to look for my imaginary powerball ticket, and then pretended I won the top prize of a couple of million and because you really need to see 3 pictures of me, here they are.
Jinli: Why do you keep wearing that purple shirt
Me: Because....I keep waking up at 9.50 when class starts at 10.
Exercise 1: How does ‘the world’ change as the light changes? 18/40 marks
Approx 1000 words (not including your notes, which are to be handed in with the essay)
The perception of the world depends on the light source, the properties of the illuminated surface and, at the outset, the sensitivity of the photoreceptor mosaic on the retina. This mosaic is made up of three cone-types (L, M and S- wavelength sensitive) and one type of rod. Not only do these four photoreceptors have different spectral (wavelength) sensitivity but they also have different brightness sensitivity such that in under moderate to bright light-conditions, rod output is completely saturated and only cones contribute to your visual world. As the light level drops, then the effective contribution of the cones becomes less and the rod contribution to your vision increases until, at very low light levels such as moonlight, only rods mediate your vision. Observation of these two extremes and the transition between the two provides an important insight into the constraints placed upon the whole visual system by the ‘front end’.
What I would like you to do is to take notes on the apparent change in your percept of the world as you move from cone- to rod-mediated vision and describe this change.
You are to sit outside, as far away from artificial light sources as possible, at sunset(or if you are really enthusiastic – at sunrise) and record the changes in the visual image as the light level falls to darkness. If you can choose a clear moonlit night then the experience will be much richer. Then use your notes to reflect upon the change and the insight you have gained from it. Consider the change in appearance of the colour, the form, the depth, the motion in the environment and relate this to what you know about the early processes of vision. It is most important, however, for you to reflect upon your observations and thoughts rather than give me some specific answer.
Sigh, I need some help here.
Shall go and revise some psychology.........haven't touched it since week one, unless attending lectures are counted.
But everyone knows you don't really learn much in lectures....right?
Who wants to sit and watch the sunset with me and take some notes? I know, far out...it's freezing these days.
I'm feeling a terrible lack of motivation tonight, basically, I feel very tired.
It's all about the way He changed our lives
I realise that.....I don't really have the luxury of time to sit here typing this, but also that, I need a break before I suffer from a nervous breakdown (Chuah 2009).
LOL. I tried to reference that just to be you know.....lame.
Need some of that lame-ness back in my life.
Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
You know where I really experience the grace and goodness of God nowadays? At my workplace. Somehow, I always feel terribly stressed out at the start of the day, being afraid that the sales target would not be met. All I can do is say a silent prayer, it is that bad, sometimes I just feel like I'm going to crack under the pressure. The worst part is, the pressure is self inflicted...Stasia(girl I work with) always tells me to please just relax, she's very relaxed herself. So I don't get why I'm so stressed out over it. Proverbs 3:5-6 has been such a great comfort, in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
So..on top of meeting sales targets, I've been going over the target, and it just dawns on me how God provides, and I should not worry.
Needless to say, I've been earning extra this week by nearly another hundred dollars wheee.
Nah not quite a hundred actually...haha.
And I was just calculating the amount of time allocated to specific activities each work, and it scared me:
Work (paid and non paid): 18 hours +
Contact hours: 14
Church: 6 hours +
On top of that, I've got to do my readings, research for assignments, type the essays. blahblahblah. You know, I can't wait for Easter. Basically...I need to get started on crim assignment again. The past few days haven't been very good. Oh well.
I REALLY DO NOT FEEL LIKE READING TONIGHT, but I have to :(
Look at how happy and relaxed we were back then, unaware of the looming doom of readings and research and assignments.
Oh well, gonna get started on some work now. How awesome is the end of DST. Time gets pushed back one hour, I got an extra hour of sleep :)
I'll just end with a very enthusiastic "Life is GREAT!" and I mean it!
Procrastinating
Hi all, it's one ten and I should sleep,
BUT I FEEL WIDE AWAKE.
That does not translate to me waking up on time in the mornings though.
You know one thing that's really bothering me? Supersearch never works on home computers in the night. I actually went to law lib earlier just to research, the past two nights were spent wrestling with supersearch and failing miserably......such time wasted.
Omg, I saw the flasher again on freaking Bouverie street. I'm telling you, that street is the dodgiest street in that area. The funniest thing is, it was in the afternoon about half past twelve. I went to Peter's and called him, but by the time we went back the guy was gone. Gee. No this is NOT an April Fool's day joke.
Okay, that was one nasty incident in my otherwise lovely day.
Aren't you just dying to know why my day was lovely???
I KNOW YOU ARE!
Alright, I shall end the terrible suspense.
I got a new ipod! It isn't really brand new, but rather it's darren's old ipod. He only used it for a couple of months though, and I got it for 80 dollars :)
One reason why I'm so relaxed is because my assignments are almost completed. Whether I'll pass or not though remains a point to be contested. I'm kinda scared :/ but well, there's no doubt I'm trying my best, so...let's just not think about it for now.
My psych assignment is kinda hard...what we're supposed to do is sit in the sunset and observe colour changes and generally changes around us. My friend was like, "that sounds fun".....until I said, "AND WRITE AN ESSAY".
Then he went, oh...
I mean, uhhhh, what kind of essay is that supposed to be?
Well, I'll worry about that another time. Heck, I don't even have time to watch the sunset.
