It's 1030, if I start studying now, I'll manage to complete my targets for today before I sleep. OH NO RANDOM THOUGHT I FORGOT TO GIVE MYSELF A STAR FOR BIBLE KUNGFU...but then again, I bet everyone else forgot too we're too busy crowding around the piano, guitar or xbox during (after)cell. I love cell, I shouldn't have left so early, but then again...if I leave at the time I usually do my mom's just going to go ballistic. Been pushing the limits the past week so...today's a change :) Plus I was dressed in shorts and a tshirt......and it is cold. Geez. The only thing I hate about weather in Melbourne is that it's so unpredictable. Hot cold hot cold. Blah, sorry I know I should stop talking about the weather.
Anyway bible kungfu is something most of PBJians are doing together as a cell. We're going to read the bible in one year in a structured sequence of books. Today we'll finish Mark(our first book). I'm dreading the day we start on the part of the old testament before Psalms....I remember doing it when Joy's Youth did it about, last year? It was really horrible going through books like Numbers...and I'll have to do it again :/ lol.
This reminds me, I've got to get a notebook to write down the ABCDEs of Bible Kungfu, before I do too many and can't be bothered to compile it properly. Oh ABCDE is a way to help you read the bible more purposefully(hopefully lol).
A - A title: Give a title to the passage you're reading
B - Best Verse: Best verse from the passage
C - Consistency: what in your life corresponds to what is said in the passage
D - Difficulty: what's the hardest thing for you, in order to follow what is said in the passage
E - Epplication(lol): What are you going to DO about it after reading about it.
Okay, hope that was clear. I've been doing it for the whole of Mark excluding Mark 10-13 which I'll do today hurrah.
Anyway while the rest of the world headed to Singapore Day today I was stuck in the library with the Korean. We nearly went to play soccer today because it was so fine in the afternoon but blahhh I really had to sort out vector calculus soooo all I could do was stare out of the big glass windows in law into the park outside where these two men were having a kick :( My study plans didn't go too well though, had to help Peter with his worship for cell...long story, in short, this other cell member was rather irresponsible? But anyway it was alright in the end.
OH and, Chris was being most weird/annoying today. I don't know, it isn't just me. It's just all the things he says and the way he talks as if he has a lot of authority. I hate people speaking like that, and he isn't even the leader. I was in that case.
Okay, I don't know why I'm blogging so weirdly today..congratulations if you made your way here :)
But that doesn't mean I'm stopping there. I have so much to say.
Anybody has any ideas how to dress up as a ninja. I wanna do that for Montage, and I hope the whole cell does it too. Or well those who are more active in cell. Shiro has his naruto costume...I digress, HE LOOKED SO HILARIOUS, sprouting all his jappy terms and dressed in his jappy costume LOL.
Well, I don't think I'll end up as a ninja anyway, reckon it is actually kind of lame.
Oh for those who went to Singapore day, did you guys get the binoculars?! Someone in cell did and she gave it to me :) It's so cool, it reminds me of Wall-E somehow, though I didn't even watch Wall-E. Anyway one klutzy thing I did with that binos. For those who have it you'll know it kind of pops up when you press this button, well....brilliant me thought the button was used for focussing the binos. So, with the binoculars pressed against my face, I pressed the button and it POPPED into my face. By the way, it pops up not by like one cm or something, it pops up by at least 7 cm. IT WAS SO PAINFUL. Peifen who was beside me knew it did that but only told me AFTER it happened because she thought I "would know it did that". Anyway the binoculars are the cooolest. I'm going to bring it to church tomorrow and spy on the pastor woohoo.
Alright you know what's weird, I'm blogging like I have a large audience especially regarding Singapore day, but I think of the people who know my blog, only Jinli would've gone for Singapore day. In fact, she probably is the only Melbournian who knows my blog. Wow revelation!
Still have not done any work..looks like today is a break day after all :/
Anyway, I've figured things out. As long as you are happy :) I mean this from the bottom of my heart.
From this day, I've decided to only hold on to the happy times, and there are plenty. Were, or are? I don't know. Does it matter?
Just in case I ever forget, here's to all the days spent running after buses, paper hearts; one for each trip taken, stories and picnics and calamari's, tandems and long walks, being silly and having no worries. It'll be impossible to place a label to everything, but you know how things are linked to each other...perhaps this is a good sum up, no I'll never find someone just like you.
Well they say that between a boy and a girl, love always happens. One will fall for the other at some point, sometimes at the wrong time, or perhaps at different times, maybe only temporarily and in the rare beautiful cases, at the same time (and forever). I mean love isn't only in relationships. Often it isn't even love in relationships. It's kind of hard to say you love someone, because there's so much encompassed in love. I would never let anyone hurt you in that way. Withot Yo...but still keeping you in my prayers everyday. Everyday.
550? Talk to me, please.
My eyes feel gross.
So. so. so. so. so. so. bleagh about studying. Should I give myself a break today? But then I've been giving myself breaks everyday. Why are we all so unmotivated...it's not even like as though I have all knowledge at my fingertips, in fact I don't think I've ever been less prepared for a major major major exam like this one. Well, I probably didn't study much for PSLE but PSLE was lame and you all have to agree. And well technically speaking I've only had one other major exam which is O levels. Anyway, VCE isn't supposed to be lame...and you know I just realised it's OCTOBER which means, I missed the date to fill in all my university choices properly in VTAC. Oh am gee. Well, at least I know my first choice is alright, I can't remember any of my other choices, there's a vague idea but if you asked me to quote even my second choice I'll be rendered speechless. I'm so weird.
You know I said I wouldn't blog about this, but strangely enough, that was the first thing that came to mind when I opened my eyes this morning. I think I'm just being a selfish bitch, but then, you're not much better are you? I don't really know who "you" is refering to, honestly I hate my own guts, for thinking the way I do and saying the things I say. It's funny how people always say that yes they can control something despite others telling them it'll become an addiction or worse. I'm feeling all these weird emotions when I'm alone, I'm sorry for beating round the bush like this but these thoughts are like a big ball of tangled yarn, I don't even know where the start or the end is...
Until the day you look me in the eye and tell me you feel nothing, I'll hold what you said in my heart. I know, you've said many things, but just one thing I'll remember, only you and I will ever need to know, alright?
I'm being so...selfish right now. Need. An. Attitude. Makeover.
Alright, I take back all that I said in the previous paragraph. Partly because right now(yes in a span of three seconds my mindset changes) I don't give a damn. Whatever happens, I'll be calm and cool.
Right, that's what I always say...oh please, let me surprise me for a change.
I have no other pictures to post and these were really funny. Lol. The first one is the chinese text I sent when a sudden impulse hit me, and the second is Jinli's hilarious reply.
Anyway I HAD to blog. Tell me friends, how many of you know what superannuation means, please raise your hands. Well I expect no hands to be raised except for freakola Jinli's. She's in collaboration with Peter, yes she is. How else can both of them say the SAME THING about this superannuation thing. Apparently it's supposed to be common sense.
jinli says:
it's always on tv and stuff
like the ad about super funds
with two people on an escalator
That's almost exactly what Peter said to me and he said everyone knows but I had such strong faith in you Jinli, that you were normal, so I said confidently that I bet you wouldn't know what this super thing was, and then now you RUIN MY PLANS.
Geez. I think I'm becoming weirder and weirder as the days pass kik.
Oh ma gawd. I'm talking to jinly online and it's driving me crazy. SHE'S SO WEIRD...(long mouth face)
jinli says:
if i marry someone who's surname is lee
jinli says:
i will be lee jinli
I reckon she would be Jinli LEE. As in, Jinlili KIK.
Okay, I know that must've sounded like a chunk of gibberish, especially the KIK part, but I can't be bothered to explain..it's too much of a chore.
It was really warm this afternoon, I sweated like (something that sweats a lot) while playing soccer at Princes Park. Peter insists that the next time we go exercise I'll have to run 10 laps before starting. I'm telling ya, he is insane. Plus he doesn't just keep quiet when running, he's talking and talking and talking my ear off while I'm panting and panting trying to stay alive. Geez.
Anyway my point of saying it was really warm, is that it suddenly turned REALLY COLD. Brr. As I was stepping out of Law at 10pm there was this chill that hit me. Thank God I brought a jumper...somehow I just did.
Wassup beautiful sister
(smile)For all the mysteries that aren't so complicated after all.
I just lost my train of thought...I certainly had more to blog about. Anyway life's looking up. It's not that bad after all, nothing ever is. To quote Mr Drunk, all you have to do is "look at the sun behind the stormy clouds".
Everyday I thank God I'm surrounded with all these people who say the weirdest and funniest things just to make life that much easier to get through.
says:
omg
u looked really happy in that photo
never saw u smiling like that
in that photo
u dont have that
subtle depression in ur face
u look totally bright and happy
well if i look u carefully
i can see some sadness
on going thing
but there u look totally happy without a hint of sadness
and free from all the worries
like a joyful smiling
instead of smiling because its fun or funny
☺aiwee says:
you can see a lot from a tiny picture
that you only saw for a moment or two
says:
cause it was a big difference
never saw u smile like that
u only smile when its fun, with your friends and when shiro talks some funny things
but there u looked 'happy'. not funny.
Well, it's funny. Tonight's been pretty shocking. Joy told me about Mernel's death and though I never knew her personally, I remember her as the more recognisable erm, I don't have a nice word for this...but I just walked past her a lot in school. Talked to Charlene about it...I haven't been talking to Charlene that much since awhile ago. The last time we spoke was more than a weeek :( Okay and the last time before that was ages and ages. I think I shall start talking to more people and making more effort to keep in touch.
Anyway, Mernel's death has left some kind of great impact on me and I'll definitely be praying for her family.
Dear friends please do not ever commit suicide because if an almost stranger's suicide leaves me stunned like this, it would be a thousand times worse if it was someone I knew.
"I'm sitting in my room taking pictures of myself"
Funniest sentence of today. When I read it I went like..what the hell. Lol.
Anyway, today's study attempts were a flop. I shall have to head to Library tomorrow. Surrounding myself with books on the dining table didn't work out too well. To be fair, I had a good start at 1130. Then I started texting Jinli in chinese...not long later a certain Peter Jang called and it was downhill from then on. Had lunch at Kimurakan(going out for meals with Solomon can't get any more predictable than this) and then I decided not to let this beautiful day go to waste and headed to Salvo's again. I bought a skirt and altered it when I came home. So. All in a day's work..just that no work was actually done. My brother said the skirt's ugly, but I reckon it's pretty cute, just that now it looks a little like a table cloth to me. Oh and pardon my very unglamourous home shirt "matched" with the skirt.
I'm not too bad at taking pictures of myself too.
"You'll take a hundred and have like 5 nice ones"/ Jinly cracks me up sometimes.
Anyway I forgot to mention that on the tram to Bridge Road yesterday, a pack of ticket inspectors pounced! Yes it was a PACK. There were so many of them, it was rather unnerving. My ticket was validated(Thank God) but still, I was shaking from the experience. Maybe it's hearing too many horror stories from others....especially DALE. He's been fined four times, that can buy me a clarinet man. I now know why Dale has a great fear of ticket inspectors. Oh and Jinli doens't look young! HAHAHA. She had to show her concession card.
Also, I saw Ms Soutiriou look-alike at Bridge yesterday. OMG. It was so scary. I've seen her THREE TIMES. That's quite a lot for someone whom you don't know and yeah, at different locations. First was on the train from Footscray back to City, the second was at Melbourne Central Scooter(where rows and rows of shoes sat mocking me), and yup, yesterday. I spotted her and started telling Jinli and then SHE TURNED AROUND AND STARED AT ME. Who knows I might see her a fourth time. Bleagh.
