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Sunday, 21 April 2013
Time,

My head is spinning, and I get headaches ever so often.

I get confused by what people say and do, and my to-do list scares me.

Some nights I think about the day and I am utterly disappointed by how little I have achieved despite the amount of time and effort put in.

On those same nights, a quick mental run-down of the fast-approaching due dates for x number of tasks leaves me thinking - I'm not going to make it.

Today's one of those bad days,
and tonight's one of those crazy nights.

I guess I'll just leave things till tomorrow.

Monday to Wednesday at Frankston next week. Truth be told, I'm so scared I will slip up in placement, as I do ever so often...and, I'm just dreading the next week. I wish there were some way I could escape that reality, but there just is no way.

I wish I would stop feeling so miserable about these things, I don't know how else to put it - but I'm really not happy doing these things. It might be because I've never really had to study something I absolutely disliked before. Or something I'm just downright bad at. I would say, being a researcher is definitely not my forte, and neither is working with swallowing and voice patients. In fact, I would really like to add that "swallowing and voice" (literal name of the subject, I kid you not) was my worst subject of all time. All time i.e. all my uni life since year 1 in undergrad. It's the first exam I actually walked out from thinking - geez, I might actually FAIL this thing. Oh well, maybe I should count it a blessing that I'm having my swallowing and voice placement at the intermediate level, where I'm not expected to be fully independent yet. I would most certainly die if my entry level placement were to be a swallowing and voice one. Sometimes I look at patient files thinking - alright, now what? You know, when your mind's a blank? Oh, thank God this isn't entry-level. No, really.

love, 00:05
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