Commit This to Memory

Surrender

So Easter camp is over, and I sort of get my previous life back. Though I'm not sure if I really do...spent the better part of my day racking my brains over the dreaded big T, and that's not the only horrible uni responsibility. Ah well, such is life.

Being part of the camp committee opened my eyes to so many things, and looking back on the way everything has panned out all I can say really is that God had been in control the whole time. I wish I had better words to describe how this feels, but I don't know how to describe how every single thing - the good and the bad - has added up and created this perfect ending. Perhaps it's not perfect, in the perfect sense of perfect, but something in me just knows that the way everything ended up is perfect for me.

Most of the committee were doing a lot of work behind the scenes, so the camp seemed to just flash by...However, I'm really glad we had time to participate in the worship and sermon sessions. That was a time where I felt I was able to be still amidst the non-stop activity and just slow my mind down. During those times, and many other moments in camp, I just felt so blessed by God, that while we were weak, He is strong and He has been with us every step of the way.

When I was first asked to be in the committee, I thought to myself - oh wow, am I even going to go to the next easter camp?! I actually had no intention of participating in future camps. Personally, I go to and leave each camp with an immense amount of emotional baggage. The last camp was pretty much the worst for me - just in terms of that emotional baggage...camp itself is usually pretty amazing. Joining the committee was essentially not an easy decision and I took a few weeks to actually make the decision to say yes, and I'm really glad I did it. Hearing all the testimonies about non-believers from the group leaders each night brings about this indescribable sort of joy, and made all the long late night debrief sessions worth it. Looking back, that really was the highlight of the camp for me even if I was really really sleepy during the actual sessions.