Tonight I WILL sleep by 1130.
Geez, I just clicked on the wrong Led Zeppelin video on youtube..and it was one of those annoying "what's the satanic message behind a song" kind of video. Honestly, I don't mean to be offensive to anyone but who bloody listens to songs backwards? I'm so annoyed now. How can music like Stairway to Heaven be satanic, honestly...you know what's "satanic"? Pussycat Dolls. You don't even have to listen to it backwards to pick up on all the messages their songs send out, all the messages that are just so wrong on so many levels and influences people to believe good looks and money is all you need.
Okay, I didn't mean to say that the Pussycat Dolls are "satanic", but you know what I mean.
And I sound like a broken record, but come on, how LAME is listening to songs backwards? I mean, if you have that much time to analyse songs when they're played backwards maybe you should volunteer some of that time with charity organisations hey?
Anyway, I don't know why I'm so disturbed by this. Maybe it stems from a conversation with a friend last night. What is all these Satanic thing, maybe I should talk to the pastor again. Oh well, Pastor Chris is coming to cell this week so maybe that's a good time. I don't know why, I like talking to him, not that I have spoken extensively to him but I'll always remember that night when I wanted someone to talk to and he approached me. It may not sound like much perhaps, but it is because my church is kind of really massive and I'm not even "well-known" at all in church, so for Pastor Chris to have approached me, I don't believe it was just a coincidence. I remember him saying, "are you alright or do you need someone to talk to?", while I was just idling around where my cell sits. Oh well, I said I was fine and it's alright, but then went to him shortly. I know it sounds so dumb hahaha.
How did my post get here. All I wanted to say when I logged in was that it's Graduation tomorrow and go on about how time flies. Geez.
I also received a rather bizzare text message today. I don't really know how to react to that, perhaps I shouldn't read too much into things. But judging from how he used to be, I have to admit I'm hesistant to believe what he says. What I'm happy about is that even though he said sorry and said I probably wouldn't forgive him, I realised that in fact I do not have to forgive him. But anyway, though I still feel almost scared, I don't deny that I'm kind of happy. So tell me something I don't know, don't just say sorry because that won't cut it, tell me something new.
While waiting for the tram today, I tried to "sort my thoughts out" and found that hey, on the surface I am so unhappy and mixed up, but away from all that jumble I actually have joy in me. How would I know that? It's hard to say really, and I don't feel like it. I just feel like I'm in a protective bubble that God has provided me with and all there's all this unrest and uncertainty bouncing on and off the outer walls, yeah it creates some disturbance but still I'm ultimately safe and hidden from it all.
We are hard pressed on every side; but not crushed; perplexed but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.
2 Corinthians 4:8-9
What's with my long long posts these days lol
